Its complicated

You know when you post your interests on profiles I find that complicated. I have a Ipod that I listen to while walking etc and my music is shall we say eclectic. Thats one of the reasons why I usually don't put music down on my interests, I don't think its a major part of my life but listening to my Ipod really lifts my mood. On it I have CCR, then a mixture of old country ( Porter Wagoneer, Johnny Cash, George Jones) and new country (Alan Jackson, and a few others) 70s stuff, LOVE the 80s, have some 90s stuff and some new dance stuff. So its hard to explain how I feel about music. My counsellor gave me a little speaker set for it the other day. So now its in my bedroom. Funny though my son went down and played a timbaland song the other day on it...he said its one of his favourites. So we have some similar tastes.

hmmmmm

Well my status on facebook right now reads..."If I said I didn't like negative people would that negative statement make me negative too?" I was working yesterday and as I was doing shift change my cell phone was ringing. It was my friend from the past who has been in contact with me. I wasn't going to call her back last evening but I did. Big Mistake. I am having a hard time with her, i am not sure I want her back in my life. I am trying but she is really getting on my nerves. She needs so much help. I have been coming a long way in my life. Its so funny people are asking me whats different about me, have I dyed my hair, have I cut it, whats so different about me? Absolutely nothing, different attitude maybe. But people can't put a finger on it but there is something there! My counsellor told me last week I get lighter and lighter every time I go in. I am taking more and more control in my life. I feel a lot better, work is good, life is good.

Almost time to slow down

OK I have been working way too hard. Still have a few days left to work but I have tried to get as much time off in one week next month. My daughter is going to be 15 in the first week, and I have the whole day off, I work 4 hours in 6 days! Although at work there is still a matter that we are down 2 full time workers. I like the money! But back to work again today and off tomorrow!

going with the flow

OK so going to be a sucky payday, its not going the way I had it planned! But I have money and I will have my bills paid if nothing else! I so want to get rid of the puppy, she isn't working out and wish my daughter would see it. She is a lot of work and I am too tired. Another 120 pay coming up next week but its a case of my daughters birthday in a couple of weeks and school will be starting again before we know it. Went and got some healthy choices for food, went to a local wholesalers and got some veggies and fruit.
I have a friend who has come out of the past and I am having a hard time with her. I don't want to eat out all the time, I don't want to talk about her failed marriage and her spoiled kids.
We all have a cold here now as well, its gone from 33 to 10 and rain but we need the rain too many forest fires. OH well work tonight then out to the yardsales after work in the morning.
This post is a bit random but really did you all expect ( no one reads this I know LOL) any differently.

Still Beat LOL

Well its just after 6 am and I am just getting home from work. I did a emergency placement last night so had to get up early with the child. I have now worked with all his family but one sister, how sad is that. Some people should not have children.
I had a really good day yesterday. I have been sorting through a lot of stuff, my house still looks like a bomb hit it though. BUT I have been getting rid of stuff, sold things, thrown it away, gave it away. Been working on some things financially...this payday I have a pretty big cheque but its going on bills. 112 hours worked, 10 tonight and a 12 hour holiday worked. Next payday about 100 hours. Yes I am tired but I am trying to get back on my feet. One month since I gambled, I am being totally honest with everyone. Next step is find out whats going on with the puppy, can't get her trained she has my flooring torn up and peed all over the wood. I walked to my counselling appointment with the old Ipod on and it was good, stopped and sang loudly when no one was around ( bad singer LOL).
Laptop is dying, cell phone is dying and so is my microwave!!! Oh well life sucks sometimes....might go for a drink tonight to say hell with it...its small stuff, and replaceable!!!

Beat

Oh I am so tired. I ended up working extra on Friday night, about 22 hrs. So this pay there is light at the end of the tunnel. My laptop though is dying. So I am getting a new one, the kids one is theirs so I invested in a new one. I had such a bad day, first day off in about a week, and did some things I had to do. One thing I hadnt' counted on is getting into a major arguement with my sister. My mother actually took my side in it she knew I was right. I have to keep moving on in life, keep changing and sometimes these things happen.

Not in the mood

Not in the mood to do much, I am off this morning, working this afternoon then off until tomorrow. I am tired, the puppy can't seem to rest past 5 a.m. Then I have been working so much all the days are getting to me. Then the heat and forest fires. Today I get paid but there isn't going to be any money left again. Oh well thats OK too, I only need money for bills and food, although the bills are overwhelming again. Going to get the kids some bank accounts today so its going to be a busy day! Just right now I am not in the mood to do much. Have to get moving though, I don't bring my computer to work anymore, try not to be on it too much during home time (playing games is hard to resist though!).