Another busy week

I have worked and worked and worked. I have got paid and spent it all LOL. I got my insurance paid yayyy. Had a day out with my friend yesterday, she is having a hard time of it all. She broke down and she had me weepy as well. I feel so bad for her I know where she is coming from but she needs to help herself. I am doing better.
I did work last night but came home, ignored the state of my home and focused on me LOL. I had my hair done yesterday. So today it was time to pluck and primp and paint. Now I am considering laying back for a hour then getting ready to go out again.
Today myself and my daughter, mom and sister are walking for Parkinsons. My dad has it so we are going to do that. Its cold and wet and we have some sponsorship from friends and family but we are going to do it! Its not a long walk, its from a school to a local park.
Back to work tonight....but then my only day off this week is going to be Wednesday.

Interesting

I have had a interesting couple of days off. One thing was the person who was considering getting the leaders job informed me that she did, she also informed me that someone had told her things I had said. I did the one thing I wanted to do, I let her know I was wrong and what I had said was the heat of the moment, but I bet the person who told her didn't mention anything they had said.
I am figuring out the budget for myself and its really tight. Nothing unusual for me though, I am used to not having money. I would like to poke some away each pay, maybe $20. I won't have a lot of spare but then I have to say its OK I have my home, bills will be paid, food for now. I wonder how I managed to gamble like I did! Talk about burying your head in the sand!
OH well such is life. I am considering getting another tattoo one day. I am learning new things all the time and I want that to reflect that in my life.

OK OK I know

Yeah I do complain a little bit about my life. I do work a lot and I do get tired. I just worked a 24 home again for 4 hours and back for a 12 tonight. I am off then until Thursday morning. I am wondering how to deal with the money, I do have to pay the bills and that would help but I am also thinking get a little in the bank. I have to start living the budget I have given myself. No more doing what I want I guess LOL. I am actually considering giving up a shift, the hours I will get will be over 140 on this pay due to the holiday. BUT once again I have to consider what I am getting and what I need.
OH well time will tell!

Wondering what to do

Wondering what to do with myself again. I just worked a 80 hour week, tired but went out last night and it was pathetic. I am at a bit of a loss. What direction do I want to take with my life? Whats going on with work? I don't want to lose the hours for next week or the next two weeks. I don't think I will get them though. If I am offered work in another home do I take it to make sure I work but it will be more stressful. My friend was flirting with me again online this morning, I enjoyed it because it was bantering back and forth, he would say he could stay here I would be very happy and he said no hands involved. I said how can he cut the grass, paint the living room and tear down my back step with no hands! I went to sleep here on the couch at 2 and up by 8 and work calling me asking about a movie. Its 8 am on Sunday what was the rush? I am not interested in a lot of things anymore. I am not going out looking for sex, I am not into that anymore although I often think that the man that I loved has had his fair share of sex since he ended it thats all he wanted I think.
My friend she is a good person but right now she has gone into the negativity and I have tried talking to her about it. I am going to have to try and back off for a bit. I think she is part of the reason why I am down today.
I have worked hard to get out of that mind set. LOL most days now I just wish I had "stuff". Just small things but just that female mindset of getting a new pair of shoes etc. When I went out last night I wasn't feeling good about myself. I need to focus on myself. With the possibility of my job being gone I have bought food, and want to catch up on things before it happens. I have found a washer and dryer thats within my price range. So I am thinking should I invest some money in those, I don't' have the money now but maybe by the end of the month.
I am feeling a little lonely too I think. I am tired of going out and ending up eating with my friend. I don't feel good and I don't like how she tries to say she doesn't go to the chicken place only with me. I didn't go before her and she has let it slip she has gone a few times a week. I told her yesterday I can't make plans now until I know whats going on at work.
I miss my counsellor. I miss that connection. I am a bit calmer again because I can't worry about what I can't control. I can try to help figure out what we can do but I can't make someone not let me go from my job or cut my hours. I won't drive myself nuts. I have been down that path before. I don't want to go that way. I have been trying to get my friend not to be that way either. If she isn't going to change or at least reconsider how she handles things like I said I am going to have to back off from her for a few days. My life is my priority and negativity is like a cold, one person has it and if your around it too long you catch it too.
LOL I just want some fun and relaxation.....soon!

Found out more about work

Yesterday we got the call that our hours are definately on the line. Our kid at work will be more family centred than our place now. Weekends he will be with us, so whats going to happen with us? I picked up a few hours for next week so I have that, I need to have some money to keep me going if my hours get cut. I am looking after myself this time! Apparently there is some work available in the hotels. But I would like them to move that child into our house, makes more sense I think! Fingers crossed it will all work out!

I am Tired

I am tired of eating. Seems like thats all I do and I have to stop. I am going to tell my friend I can't go out and eat so much, I feel like a whale and I look like one too :( I feel so bleah!

Work and more work LOL

Yeah I am working a 24 kind of tonight, at some point tomorrow I will come home and shower. I worked yesterday and today in the other house, so thats a few more hours, got offered a night tonight and I will do my own shift tomorrow. I am picking up a shift on Sunday for 8 hours at another house. I am tired but I want to go out on Friday night and go to the yard sales on Saturday so I have to have some money. This extra money is coming in handy! Makes it a little easier for me! So I will be off to work soon, need to keep the wolves away from the door!