Dwelling on the past

I am doing that a lot the last few days. I think its the negativity of my friend and the men stuff. I can't get that man out of my mind!! Or my heart!!! I am such a fool....hateful it is!

I am so pissed off with myself

I was flicking through some old emails and came across pics of the man I love and damn it I am sitting here lonely and missing him...I hate myself I started to cry of all things...what am I going to do with myself!

Having another busy day

OK so I had a crap night sleep. I was lazing around, and the contractor called to say he was dropping by. Soooo a hour later he shows up! BUT he was here, did all the measurements and had a look to see what needs to be done! Yahhhhh!! Meanwhile my friend called offered to buy me lunch. He left just after her lunch break started so we ran and got food, was supposed to be Subway but ended up A & W. I just got a call from my son he got 97 on his math!! This is a boy who last year almost failed math! My mom had to fly out to the island to get medical tests done, and they are keeping her for a few extra days so I reluctantly offered to lend my dad some money tomorrow.
I have decided to gambling tomorrow. I have set up a time with a friend. I am not guilting myself about it I just want to go do it. I am in control of it. I won't be able to do it often but I just want to do it. I have to find out about the next group meeting. I don't want to not go thinking I am "OK".

Another Busy Day...now theres a Surprise!!

So OK I worked last night. I got off work this morning and did up all the paperwork required for my application for the batchelor of social work program I am applying for. I had someone drop by with the scope of the work I need done on my home. I have decided to try water aerobics to try and get my weight down. I am sore all the time and I think its because I don't move. I am going to go out with my gambling buddy Friday evening after work, I owe her big time! I am wondering if my other friend will be jealous. I have to get a life no matter who is in it. I need to blow off a little steam. I need a little break. I know I know but I have worked hard!

Yayyyyy

LOL sounds pretty said but I have 2 gallons of raspberries coming to me on Friday...$40 but I will get some jam made with them. I love homemade bread, real butter and Jam...MORE Winter food!

Roll on Tomorrow!

After my shift tonight I am off until Saturday Morning!!!! They asked me to work in another house yesterday morning and I said no waiting for a phone call. I don't know if they believed me or not, but I got a call just before 9 and had my home inspected by 11!! The best thing is I got approved for the maximum amount of funding from the program. $9500!!! He recommended new doors and windows, my steps need to be done and he also recommended I block off a back room...too much money would go into trying to get that taken care of. I was hoping the contractor I wanted was going to drop by today but he didn't. I want that work done asap.
I worked a 16 hour last night, and did up the containers of food like I wanted to do. So now I have more things in my freezer!
I am a mess though! Got to take care of that soon!

Hmmm

I swore I posted earlier today!