Fleetwood Mac and Me

Thats what I am listening to. Actually earlier on I went out for a walk and didn't even get to Fleetwood I sang along to Travis Tritt and "Heres a quarter call someone who cares". Thats a good drinking song but right now I am just sitting here been a little busy. Sorting out my clothes right now, did the dishes that have piled up all week, doing some laundry and wondering where the summer, hell the whole year went.
Yesterday was my daughters 16th birthday. She also got her first job which she started today and got her beginners for driving...what happened to my life? Only seems like yesterday she was born LOL well 16 years ago yesterday. She wished that my ex was around, she has mentioned him several times since he dumped me. She really liked him and I think she liked him more than her dads current girlfriend will ever be liked. She said "wish Mike was around, he would have given me a nice card and that (current girl friend zilch) and she laughed and said bet you he would have taken me out in his rental car!" One thing I have to say is he treated my kids great as well. He didn't have to but he did and I will always appreciate him for that. They had a very positive experience when I was with him. He was and still is missed. She had her provincial offical transcript for grade 10 they had a mistake made her average was 93.5. What more can I ask for, I am going out tonight thanks to my daughter. I wish her all the success, which I know she will have in life.
As for me, I am sorting through things today, cleaned out the fridge, dishes etc. Just went though some of my clothes. I am going to be sorting out my school work later on and begin studying tomorrow.....exams all next week. This is the defining point in my life. My life will be changing a lot in the next few weeks. I have to find a part time job, then wait until the end of the month to find out if I have made it into the program. I have had a rough couple of weeks, I have difficulty with the heat and the rain. I have been exhausted this week with the heat. I did poorly on my assignment...had a 50% on something worth 30% of my mark but I will be OK. I had problems that week with the idiot brother in law and was distracted. I am quite at peace now, no pressure even though its exam time. I am feeling stronger the last couple of days. I know I will be OK no matter what happens, life goes on. Money is the bane of my existance, never enough, and when I have it its gone. I think its a compulsion of mine now. I am afraid of not having enough and run out of money so I now buy things but end up wasting a lot of it. I am going to start setting goals for myself. Start small.
Since February I have lost 11 lbs. I weighed the other day figuring I had gained the 7 lbs I had lost before back and more...since May I am down 4 lbs. Small victory but its a lot better than where I was. I have decided to try and not eat crap like I do, its so easy especially when I am here alone. I have been craving fruit, so I bought some today. Just short of cash all the time makes it hard. But thats OK as well, buy healthy for myself and my kids. I went to the store today, spent about $90 which is a lot but I am OK. Food prices are outrageous but thing is I don't mind going out for lunch...$13 each time with a drink etc. So if I can spend that or buy a bag of chips for $4 why can't I spend $7 on fruit instead. Reach for that, I am just lazy and no need of it. I am going to try and control a lot of things. Hard but it can be done!