I really need sleep LOL

Yeah I have been awake over a hour now. Have a lot on my mind, I forgot to eat (even though I can afford it I am so fat from this year of work) but my body almost gave out at school yesterday. I think my sugars were way off and my blood pressure is up. I found out as well that out of the 37 or so starting school only 20 of us will actually go on to do our degree....NOT the news I wanted to hear. So what do I do.....try my best and cross everything. I now have to find some volunteer work to do to boost my CV for the school of social work.

Tomorrow is the beginning

SO I quit work a week ago and so glad I did! Tomorrow is orientation for school, two days of that then on Monday it all begins. A whole new way of life....money is going to be tight but thats OK! I am used to it and things will get easier one day!

You know whats really discouraging

When someone sees your face pic and they disappear. Nice eh good for the old self esteem.

I wish kids came with instructions

I really dont' know what to do anymore. My kids are getting to me. I can't wait for them to go with their dad. I am trying to figure them out. I think my kids need to get some counselling. I am just about ready to quit. I am tired of their indifference and manipulation. They are just starting out and usually pretty good but there is that underlying attitude and problems you can't put your fingers on. I have tried my best for years and nothing seems to be good enough. I just don't know anymore.

Its almost over with yayyyyyyy LOL

The job and the holidays are almost done!! I am ready I think. Never had to worry about the hours, I actually put my notice in for December 30th. I have things I have to do before school. I will get a full cheque (more hours than I should have got...LOL 104 I think) on Dec 31st, and a few hours on January 15th. I am so tired right now. I have spent a lot of money and time getting things for Christmas and work at the same time.
I am getting a hamper tomorrow, seeing as I am entitled to it and was told by several people to get one. To be honest its going to get me through the holidays whats going to be in that box. I am not too proud to say I am having a rough time right now. I am nervous about going to school. But its a chance I can't turn down.

I want to make some changes

I was out looking for a gift for one of the girls at work. We did the stupid gift exchange thingy and I asked her last week if we could put it off until next week, we get paid on Friday and I would have money. Needless to say its been planned for tomorrow. I wasn't impressed. I have two kids to feed and take care of and its less than two weeks before Christmas. They want to have brunch tomorrow and a Christmas dinner as well. My issue is what about stuff that I want to do? Oh well.
I am wanting to do some redecorating in my home. I have new paint for the living room. I can do it myself maybe in the new year. I am going to order some curtain panels and have a rug on the way!
New pay period started yesterday so I will get some kind of pay on December 31st. I don't get a cheque from the funding agency for school before Jan 7th. I was hoping to get it sooner but oh well at least I know I am getting one. I hate being broke but thats it thats the time of year we are in.

Well its Official

Just had a staff meeting and the home I am working in will be closed by the end of January 2010. Its a good job I am going to school. Only thing is could be as soon as tomorrow. Don't know for sure. One good thing is I would rather have a lay off than a quit. I also said I would like to be still call in to the other homes.