What do I Do

I just don't know what to do to shake this mood off. This time of year is always my favourite time but I also get very down on myself and life. I am sitting here so down on myself, I am starting to cry and I have to go to work soon. I don't know what to do to get myself back up. I still think of bad things to do, only for my parents and kids I am still here. I don 't care about or matter to anyone else in this world. No one wants a fat old ugly flawed boring person like me I guess. Probably good enough to f*ck and thats it. Face it nothing else interesting about me. A hole is a hole after all.