Definately lost right now

Thats how I feel, even though I should know where I am. I am tired of the rollercoaster of school, work, sleep, eat and sleep with nothing or no one to look forward to. I am losing control of that old gambling thing again I think...but the frustration of my life is a big trigger for me. I basically have a friend who I get around with...just one. She is a hard person to be around but at least she calls and we go to the yardsales etc together. Sad life but she is single like me. I don't know what to do right now I am tired a lot of the time. Like yesterday we were busy gone all day so today I made bread, soup and banana bread. I try to keep on top of my house but its a losing battle. I have to work a 12 hour shift tomorrow. Long days mean not a lot of time when I am home and when I am home I am tired and trying to sleep. I am tired of the chaos all the time. I wish I was more secure with things, less bills and less responsibility. I have no direction right now, I am still in the presocial work semesters. I have to get to work on all that stuff. Its up to me but I just need a little help or drive sometimes.