Just feel a little lonely tonight

Yeah thats how I feel. How long is my life going to be this way? I only seem to work, go to school, go shopping or eating out with my friend. I cut that off, and I am trying to gain back the financial stability I once had. After being dumped last year I took a pretty big financial nosedive, it was my way of coping and its hard to bounce back. So I took control again this week. I am getting back in control even if it kills me LOL. I am tired right now, I don't even have a bed to sleep in anymore. I got rid of it and gave my room to my oldest, not like I need a bed I sleep on the couch thanks to work thats all I am used to laying on now. I have so much crap still in that room though, bunch of nail stuff, cosmetics, some jewelry I have laying around. I am so tired I haven't been taking care of my home and I hate it...it shows the chaos in my life, the chaos in my home. I can see that relation. Tomorrow I need to focus again, going to make bread, make some soup and do some school work....and try to get organized!