Lonely

Last couple of days I have felt so alone. If I didn't have my kids here right now I would probably be falling apart. My hearts not into anything at all. Hate having a heart hate having emotions. Hate life right now. I don't even want to go where I think I might see him even though he isn't here. I am embarrassed and ashamed, because they know I was dumped by him. Didn't take long for the news to spread where he works here in town. Guess thats why I dont' want to go down there. I don't want to go anywhere. Just want to lay down close my eyes and have everything go away. Just feel alone.