I wish kids came with instructions

I really dont' know what to do anymore. My kids are getting to me. I can't wait for them to go with their dad. I am trying to figure them out. I think my kids need to get some counselling. I am just about ready to quit. I am tired of their indifference and manipulation. They are just starting out and usually pretty good but there is that underlying attitude and problems you can't put your fingers on. I have tried my best for years and nothing seems to be good enough. I just don't know anymore.

Its almost over with yayyyyyyy LOL

The job and the holidays are almost done!! I am ready I think. Never had to worry about the hours, I actually put my notice in for December 30th. I have things I have to do before school. I will get a full cheque (more hours than I should have got...LOL 104 I think) on Dec 31st, and a few hours on January 15th. I am so tired right now. I have spent a lot of money and time getting things for Christmas and work at the same time.
I am getting a hamper tomorrow, seeing as I am entitled to it and was told by several people to get one. To be honest its going to get me through the holidays whats going to be in that box. I am not too proud to say I am having a rough time right now. I am nervous about going to school. But its a chance I can't turn down.

I want to make some changes

I was out looking for a gift for one of the girls at work. We did the stupid gift exchange thingy and I asked her last week if we could put it off until next week, we get paid on Friday and I would have money. Needless to say its been planned for tomorrow. I wasn't impressed. I have two kids to feed and take care of and its less than two weeks before Christmas. They want to have brunch tomorrow and a Christmas dinner as well. My issue is what about stuff that I want to do? Oh well.
I am wanting to do some redecorating in my home. I have new paint for the living room. I can do it myself maybe in the new year. I am going to order some curtain panels and have a rug on the way!
New pay period started yesterday so I will get some kind of pay on December 31st. I don't get a cheque from the funding agency for school before Jan 7th. I was hoping to get it sooner but oh well at least I know I am getting one. I hate being broke but thats it thats the time of year we are in.

Well its Official

Just had a staff meeting and the home I am working in will be closed by the end of January 2010. Its a good job I am going to school. Only thing is could be as soon as tomorrow. Don't know for sure. One good thing is I would rather have a lay off than a quit. I also said I would like to be still call in to the other homes.