still in the same old boat LOL and there are a lot of leaks

Well I had to bum and borrow all this week to catch up on bills. I am trying to get things sorted out but I am having to adjust to once a month paydays as well. I am hoping to get all my T4s for income tax stuff soon I want to get it done and get the money soon! I hope to get close to five this year. I am pinning hopes but at this point a couple would be good. With five I have the town taxes paid on this place and the house insurance. If its only a couple then I get caught up on a couple of bills and hopefully a couple of hundred in the bank.
I haven't gambled in almost a month now which is big for me. I am thinking its because of all the upheaval going on in my life.
I need to get things straight now because I want to get out more on the weekends. I need to get a life on the go! Of course I have been wasting time and money but now I have to make a effort. I know that I will never hear from that man that I loved again. I was thinking about it and he hid away when his marriage ended and he will do the same with me. I have heard he hasn't been to town since and I wouldn't be surprised if he isn't seen here again, unless he can get in on the morning flight and leave on the evening one. He is gone for sure now.

OH my

I am so tired, I have a lot of work to do but I need to take a break. I have been doing school things for the last few hours. Stayed later to do some things. I am so tired! I am trying to keep on top of things!

Gee I am tired

I just had my first day of classes. Not even real work yet but there is a lot to cover! I really need to work at this stuff for sure, I have to make that cut.
I wish I had more money LOL. I want a better life I guess...thats why I am going to school!

I really need sleep LOL

Yeah I have been awake over a hour now. Have a lot on my mind, I forgot to eat (even though I can afford it I am so fat from this year of work) but my body almost gave out at school yesterday. I think my sugars were way off and my blood pressure is up. I found out as well that out of the 37 or so starting school only 20 of us will actually go on to do our degree....NOT the news I wanted to hear. So what do I do.....try my best and cross everything. I now have to find some volunteer work to do to boost my CV for the school of social work.

Tomorrow is the beginning

SO I quit work a week ago and so glad I did! Tomorrow is orientation for school, two days of that then on Monday it all begins. A whole new way of life....money is going to be tight but thats OK! I am used to it and things will get easier one day!

You know whats really discouraging

When someone sees your face pic and they disappear. Nice eh good for the old self esteem.