New Year new promises...to me

OK so I know if anyone bothers with this anymore I didn't come back.
New year new attitude.
I am going to be a university graduate in a few months. 46 years old with my first degree.
I have been working crazy hours in the last few years. I gave up a shift....still have 106 hours worked and two paid holidays on my next pay cheque.
So I have decided to make a few changes. Don't know how long it will take to do it but I will. I am going to make a list.
I am hoping to get back to this blog. I really want to ...keep progress reports.

I know I promised to come back...and I forgot!

So here I am, forgot this site and couldn't find it! But I am back again. I am tired. I am busy. I am fed up. I messed up, as I blog on several sites online. But this one is my honest blog. This is where I am honest with everyone of who I am.
I am still alone. I don't mind being alone. I am still in school, kind of, I didn't do well and failed a course. I am hanging in though.
I am working all hours god sends me too. I have a year left before I complete my degree.
I am struggling all the time.
I am going again now. BBL

Gz where did the time go?

OK so it seems that I haven't really posted anything since last year. Where do I begin. First off I am still in school! Its been a struggle but I am still hanging in there. I am still single, more comfortable with that these days, I don't have time to date etc. I am back to work part time. I am grateful for that.
My daughter struggled with school and ended up quitting the damage had been done to her. She is going about a different route starting in January for her education. I am glad I knew she was pretty down even suicidal at one point. I didn't want that. I had to deal with what I wanted as opposed to what she needed. I am a big girl I got over it. Main thing is she is still alive if its a struggle she is still around.
I will be back and forth here. But thats the condensed version of whats happened in the last year. I will come back another day and blog about my insanity that I have been suffering for the last few months!

OK I forgot!

Ok so I am so damn busy I forgot about this. I am sorry although no one reads this anymore anyways but thats OK too this is my little space. So whats been up with me??? Struggled with life, school and work. I do have a lot to add but will do that later on sometime...LOL not the first time I said that and disappeared for 5 months or more!

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see if this will work now!

Sorry I am late

My life has been insane for the last few weeks. I survived another Christmas and another semester in school. Not sure if this is worth it anymore. Tired of the bullshit. But thats my life now. I have managed to get a few shifts with work but things have been so nuts. My husband had to lend me 800 to get some work done on my place. I am tired of it all now. I will blog again soon, just a quick jump on to say holy shit I've been busy. BBL

Ohhhh Myyyyyy

Busy busy busy. I am not sure what to do anymore! I only have two weeks of school left but I have a ton of work! My job is gone, but I have been called into work. So at least I have a little bit of money coming in December. I am tired of doing it all on my own. I would like someone to share Christmas with, and my birthday. I will be sharing it with my kids of course...love them to bits. But will be at my exhusbands for Christmas and get to see what he bought himself for Christmas and what his dummy girlfriend bought him. I will get my boots. I am getting a gift from my daughter this year though, which will be nice! So I am hoping to have money to treat myself once everything else has been taken care of. But I would like to be someone special to someone else. Have a special Christmas for a change. I always find this time of year stressful. I can't afford much in life. I have always been struggling and thats what it feels like Christmastime..one big struggle. I would love a good Christmas for a change.
Oh well life is life we make it what it is. Life could be a hell of a lot worst. One good thing is I don't have to work over the holidays but if they ask me to I will. But I am feeling like staying home for a bit, cooking for my children and having a break. Odd shift here and there...works for me! LOL I was thinking of getting a winter coat for myself for Christmas! Also want a really nice handbag, some books and chocolate. Just have to get a couple of shifts to make that happen. Thats all I want in a month about four shifts. My kids have a lot this year....I have to get a couple more gifts for them but thats in the budget. I don't buy for friends or anything like that...I don't have the money so we decided that years ago its good to have friends who understand. Actually I normally never buy myself anything but the exhusband has been treating himself....so if I can I will too LOL.